Hey everyone, I know I've been missing for a long time but I've had quite a lot to deal with lately - work, personal life etc - so I haven't really had time to do much "fun" stuff lol. I've been working on a few new things, lyrics as usual, but some drawings and stuff too so I might add them as well. Also, I've become obsessed with dreams lately, especially lucid ones - I've started having them a lot more often (I used to have them anyway periodically, but I never paid much attention to them) so I'm starting to really get into what they might actually mean and in what ways I can use them. Gives me something different to do anyway! Out of curiosity, does anyone else out there have anything to share about dreams (lucid or not). I just wondered because, obviously, dreams are very personal things and I'd like to know what we share in common in the way we construct our dreamscapes.

So, I guess that'll do, I just wanted to let you guys know I hadn't died or anything! Hope you're all well and that your lives just rock in general!!!

Oh yeah, I'm gonna see Metallica on Saturday!!!!! FUCKITY YEAH!! (sorry, Elly, but I stole your awesome play on words!)

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Just a quick one - 1,000 page views! Thanks to everybody who's looked at my stuff, woop!

Yeah, that's right - I'm only writing this because I'm sick of looking at my old entry lol.

What's new? Not much to be honest. Although I am looking at buying a new guitar that would put my total up to 4... well, 3 1/2, I kinda had an accident with one of them. It was my first Encore one, really bad craftsmanship and dodgy material, and one of the bolts that holds the strap down stripped during a fairly 'energetic' session... and now it looks like Hendrix has had hold of it lol. I don't know whether to stick with Ibanez guitars or make a change though, my main two are both Ibanez and they are fantastic... who knows.

I'll try to keep updating my gallery with my latest stuff but it seems that everything I write is being classed as emo or just depressing lately... must be the winter weather coming, yeah right.

Also, I'm trying to put together my 'best' lyrics to make a kind of sort list so I can put together a small collection to focus my music on. So I guess I'm asking which lyrics you think are my best... If you find time it would be muchly appreciated!

Til next time!

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Hey everyone!

I'm finally back home after my two week holiday - back to the daily grind for another year. I stayed in Florida and managed to dodge the unrelenting sun and tropical storm Fay, well that's not totally true I guess. Fay disappeared entirely towards the end of the holiday, after about five days of non-stop rain - and with only a couple of days left I decided to take advantage of the returning sun and go to Typhoon Lagoon and tackle the wave pool (oh yeah, I stayed in Disney World). After being used to walking around in a giant plastic sheet to avoid the rain, I'd forgotten how nasty the sun can be. I body surfed for about four hours, and through the midday too... And now I'm sunburned... Itching is not fun! After walking around the parks and such, I'd picked up a decent tan, but now I'm covered in pinky redness and have this huge ugly blister on my shoulder... ewww, I know. But anyway, I had an awesome time, even with the "almost-hurricane" Fay and the sunburn. Can't wait to go back and I hope I can next year. Also, the weirdest thing I've found about going to America (I've been nine times now) is that everyone has so much energy in the States, even the guys reading the news act like they're on crack or something - and I kinda like that! And after getting used to it, it's always weird going back to the "prim and proper" attitude we seem to have here in England. Here's an example, when Fay hit the coast they had some dude out there in a rain coat interviewing people preparing for the storm - one of them said "Bring it on, Fay! This is gonna be soooo cool! Last time we had a big storm the pier collapsed!" See what I mean? Energy! But there's one big thing America will never have, my amazing friends and family, which is why I'm ultimately glad to be back.

Hey everyone, hope you're all doing well.

College is done, finally, and i guess i should be happy... but now that i don't have any pressure on me, time seems to have accelerated and now each day has no meaning. i go to work, waste 8 hours of my day, get home and reach out desperately to the ones who are living the life i never dared to live. my missed opportunities and mistakes seem amplified lately, but i'll continue to hide behind my fake smile - my own deceptive rainbow - as the words "it's too late" echo through my head. my dreams seem startling real and profound too, with hidden meanings seemingly etched on to every little bit of them. my creativity also seems to have suffered because of this and now i can't visualise anything unless i've had a weird dream first, which usually mean too much to actually mean anything believable.
i find that faces of people i know will flash in to my head randomly during the day, and then i'll worry that they're okay - not because i think i can sense things or whatever but for my own piece of mind. it's a weird feeling of being out of control i suppose. also, one face seems to appear more than the others, but i won't say who because i'll worry what it means.
i guess i'm looking for a purpose now, something to latch on to and care for - but like so many things in my life, i guess whatever this "something" is will just fade away and disappear as i watch, too confused to stop it. ever wish life had a reset button?

by the way, i'm not in a sunny mood - it won't let me change it!!!

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